Sensation: Hot, Physicaly Agressive, Face swollen from punching self, tight, 

Mood: Anger triggered by negative thoughts, memories, and current unhealthy environment

Started day with another violent fight with my mom

Wasn't able to sleep last night. I was sleepy all day the ntook succinate dose at lunch. Got highly irritated after succinate dose, felt weird all afternoon and night. Unable to get any work done.

Constant feeling of dehydration, but too lazy to even move my body to get water or food. Very awful feeling. Laid on couch for 7 hours or so irritated as fuck.  

Woke up and somewhere along the line had angry thoughts. First thought about racism, lead to thought about experience I had, or dispute I had, and spiraled...

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So its like 3 hours later and I just went through many different moods and thoughts.

Its really good i wasnt around anyone, and didn't act out in the last 3 hours cause i was feeling extremely bad and my thoughts were not very helpful, nor the behaviors these thoughts were tempting me to act out.

Checked in with happy in late afternoon:

Drinking lots of water helped

so did eating

Evening update:

I'm back home at night and was feeling like shit the last 8 hours or so til i just remembered to have some EAAs, butter, and ACV. not i feel better and im finally relaxing and falling asleep

what made me feel better was i thnik ...... (fell asleep writing this)